Do you know when you cycle or run fast and sadness and anger all mix into one single dark feeling and you can no longer tell the road from the sky or the green from the river and tears and rain and sweat all run from your face but you no longer care and all you can do is continue to cycle or carry on running and you hope for that single dark feeling to disappear but it stays and all that is left is a gaping emptiness and the road, the rain, your tears—